My first Medium story

I’ve been holding myself back from writing because the system I use for my website doesn’t support blogs yet. And this is something I want to address, bad excuses.

I had an epiphany the other day, why am I waiting on sharing my knowledge when there are a ton of options out there for me to express my knowledge. It’s because it’s easier to come up with an excuse than to actually get up from the couch and actually go do it.

When I was younger I could some weeks just lock myself into my room and work for 20 hours a day without really feeling what was going on. This made me feel amazing and invincible. When I then grew older and got more experienced I tried doing the same but ended up either sick for some days or just without energy for a week. This made me think I had to take care of myself.

The problem was that it took overhand, and suddenly I was completely opposite of how I had been earlier. Now I could go a week without doing anything except laying in my bed watching Friends and eating too much candy. While this was going on, I was feeling so bad with myself, and I was in a constant fight with myself trying to find the balance.

And this is what I want to end and conclude on. Balance. We always talk about work-life balance, and I believe it’s one of the most difficult areas to master. Some do it, and I admire it. I myself have not been able to master it yet, but I strive every day to do so, and I’m staying in the belief that one day I will find that balance, but until then I’ll probably be switching week-by-week.